SECRET DENIAL

26.

2012-02-12T07:13:00.000-08:00

This house brings back uncountable memories.
I love this house a lot, really... it's on the top of the slope & it's so windy always.
I grew up in this house.

All of us stayed there, it was a lively place with all the families living together. The home with joy, laughter and happy moments. I remember how we used to play catching in the garden, pick snails up, play sparkles, play ball games, batminton, soccer, freeze and melt, AEIOU and compete who can run the fastest. I remember how we were so afraid of Prince. I remember how excited we were when Ahma comes home with Mentos sweets. I remember how we children fought over minor stuffs. I remember how noisy the house was everyday. I remember going to the maid's room and disturb them. I remember how we used to go the garden very very late at night, holding hands together, standing in a straight line and shouting " WE ARE BRAVE" because it's so dark and scary especially the backyard. I remember getting punished by our parents and locked up in the piano room (and uncle johnny will keep scaring us saying that there's ghost). I remember how the driver will pick us up every morning and we'll all go school together. I remember how we used to dine together and pretend to be barbers at home cutting each other's hair. Those were the days.

Then, ahma passed away and everyone started moving out. So only 2 family continued staying there and we go back very frequently. So during my free time, I'll walk over there to play with my cousins and see Rex ( bcse it's about 10mins walk away from my house ). Every new year, we'll all go back to the house to play and dine together. & it felt exactly how it was back then.

Now, it's gonna be demolished because grandpa decided to divide the house into three and rebuilt for us. It's a good thing because it worth more this way. But it'll be different........ it won't be a mansion anymore. It won't be what it is like before. I miss the feeling of everyone living under the same roof.

20 years old....

So yesterday, I went back to help dad pick up some stones to put at our house garden.
I walked around the whole house and it's so empty.
It felt so weird especially when my voice echoed back......

We'll miss you, 26.

Yes. I'm sad and I bear to see it getting crushed by cranes, exacavators and bulldozers. Good old days. But it's for the better anyway. No more 26, it'll be 26A, 26B, 26C. And all of us will still be living within such close proximity :)

Memories as such, they are happy and sad, they will be etched in our minds and we will never forget.

Sudden realisation

2012-02-10T06:47:00.001-08:00

I think I just suck as a friend but no one is direct enough to tell me. Sometimes I wanna know how I'm like in other's eyes. Feeling so fuckin' down. No one said anything, I just felt so. & times like this, I feel that I'm better off alone.

Strangers again.

2012-02-08T07:56:00.000-08:00

Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you’re broken, you’ll never be fully fixed.

A night at town with Huiting, a nice person to talk to :)

Chilling @ starbuckzxc. my usual hangout place to do work and chilll ( even the people working there recognise me now )

Guess what?
I can't remember that smell anymore, that proves something. Is it a blessing? I don't know.

The weekends.

2012-02-05T07:34:00.000-08:00

It was a great weekend! :)

Fri - Town with Becky, caught a movie & it ended around 11+? so we chilled around scape, had dessert and went home.....
Sat - Town with Yh till late night, caught a movie, chilled at some random bar and home.
Sun - Woke up so frigging late, did my homework and off to bugis to meet Reb.

THIS IS MY LOVELY CRAZY RETARDEDDD GOOD FRIEND, I CAN NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE HER. ;)

hahahahah retarded things we do.

ALRIGHTY, SAYONARAA~~~

Back to school tomorrow, think postively lyn :)))))

The media

2012-02-04T00:17:00.000-08:00

Don't you feel that the media is deludging with images of young pretty hawt girls?
Don't you feel that it's pressuring us in the way that we're dying to be like them?
Don't you feel insecure about yourself after comparing with them?
Well, I do.

Define collarbones.

Skinny legs

Flat tummy

RIGHT?

Everyday I see pretty girls all around, my self-esteem swayed. Even on the magazine, blogs, newspaper and every other media platform, I see that hour glass figure of girls. I'm never confident of myself, I'm made of flaws.

Dont be careless, just care less.

2012-02-01T03:34:00.001-08:00

The j1s are finally in the school. Goodbye to my peace in the canteen.

To think of it, I have never really been to orientation camp or rather any other camp. The only camp I went was in balestier hill. In primary sch, there wasn't any camp. In sec schl, I skipped Outward Bound camp & CO Camp. Then, when I joined Hwachong, there wasn't any orientation camp at all. I was school-less for awhile and I joined PJ in mid February so I skipped the orientation camp as well. Guess I'm not fated to attend camps. #storyofmylife

Tired these few days. It's just school, then home. THIS MUNDANE DAILY ROUTINE REPEATS... quite sad now bcse a home doesn't feel like a home without my two brothers. Army's so gonna torture them. Sigh. 2 years more to go............. how do only child survive? seriously. It's only the first day and I feel so lonely already. I need my brother to talk to :(

Pix from training today. ( have to take photos bcse of the cca open house )

Nothing

2012-01-29T04:27:00.001-08:00

Stranger, I miss us. And I don't mean like us being together; I mean like I miss us being so close and telling each other everything. You made me feel so worthless, and now he's making me feel priceless. So I'm confused......... yeah, I love the feeling of being pampered, of being priceless, of being everything to that someone. I feel lucky this time. But I know he can't keep to it anyway. Nothing last forever. Lets just be nothing. Yes, nothing.

Anw, long day out today. Church> aunt's house at amk> yishun> balestier> ubi. It felt as though I was touring singapore. I feel kinda guilty for not touching any books for this weekend. Gahh never mind. I shall excuse myself this weekend becoz it's still Chinese new year!! ^^v

2012-01-28T06:26:00.000-08:00

6th day of New Year

How's it going everyone? :)

So this is how I spent my 6th day of chinese new year.

Aunt's place > Home > Ahseng's house > Mom's collegue's house > Home > ( Mount fabor ltr on )

BORED IN THE CARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR, trying out the effects of my g12, still not really familiar with it. I love my g12 so much that I wanna sell my canon 550d. hmm...... any takers?

My very pweettyyyy young looking mommyy

I~ LOVE YOU LIKE A LOVESONG BAYBEAR.

Granny and I :)

The coupleeee, see I come and extra again....

My Dinosaur Neo

Why do i look so retarded hereeee....... i wasn't ready for the camera..........

Collected more angpow today, ( in fact moreeee than the other days ), hehehehehee....

Supposed to go Rachy's house and Mj's flea at home club today but I couldn't. bz visiting... & I'm supposed to be at zirca rightnowwww, yeaa, like RIGHTNOW.. bcse it's free entry for ladies & thr's 3 free drinks. Gahhh...Giving it a misssssss.

ANYWAYSSSS, 7th day of visiting tomorrow, out to my dad's aunty's house and I'm looking forward to it. New year is the opportunity to catch up with the old folks. :) OHWAITTTT, and church tomorrow! I wanna thankgod for everything and lighting up my life!

Alright, going to mount fabor now with bruuuddaaaa. xx love yallllll...............

Gahhh..

2012-01-27T01:22:00.000-08:00

I feel so screwed up today. SIGH.... I feel like a bad ass shit today, I feel bad. Like really really bad... I hate myself being like that. Guilty much....

1) I forgot to bring my GP file & all my work is inside. how can i be so forgetful!
2) I skipped maths remedial lesson so I can go back at 12pm to sleep ( COS I WAS RLY TIRED.... )
3) I was supposed to go Sindy's 18th birthday at pasir ris chalet but I didn't go in the end coz Dad is not happy of me overnight-ing EVERY SINGLE week. & we're going visiting tmr early morning, so he wasn't receptive of letting me stay over this time round.
4) Was supposed to go dinner with Maejeen but I cancelled it bcse Charlome and her family are coming over to my place for dinner tonight.

So this is how I spend my friday, staying at home the whole afternoon, slothing, rotting on the sofa, resting my bones........ 27/1/2012.......................

FEELING SO BAD........... I really feel bad today :((((((((((( how how how........ sigh

Ok, shall not be so negative.

These are pics @ zirca last week. I rly had fun! We're on guestlist again, thks to Miho! Joined the other girls for the first half of the night, hopped to rebel and hopped back... Reb and the rest are there too, so Mj and I joined them awhile. Free alcohol coz Cassie paid the whole $750 by herself. I kno right, madd... Glad I didn't drink much, it's like I'm scared of alcohol. Bumped into a hell lot of people and it's a rather awkward night. But as what Rebecca said, awkward nights are actually fun!

No more partying till.............. (?) no idea........................ madthrills on 4thFeb............. I KNOW.... SAY NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO. Gotta get serious on studying. Every time i think of compromising my social life for studying, I feel so shitty. It's like I wanna hv fun, play all night and hang out late, girls talk etc.... but I know I can't balance. I'm not like them, I can't juggle with it. Gosh, alienating myself is pretty scary actually. I don't know if I can handle it. I don't know if anyone will even remember me when I'm gone.

kkkkkk fuckthisshit........... I hate today.

Sick of sch

2012-01-26T21:17:00.001-08:00

Fuckin' sick of school already....... 10more mths. I don't know when I'll breakdown.

Happy new year ! :)

2012-01-23T09:12:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
Don't you feel that CNY is getting less and less interesting/exciting each year? Today's the first day of chinese new year. Wasn't stoked at all. Not even a single bit. In fact, I didn't want it to come so fast. After CNY means no more long holiday breaks anymore. It also means that I've to get serious in studying already. Honestly, there's nothing much to look forward after this long break. Not so ready for serious mugging.

Dad and I on the way to Grandpa's house :)

Wenyi and Wei wei :)
She really looks like a korean actress. So prettty! All my cousins are pretty!

Thanks Winnie and Alvin for helping me do my short and ugly nails. Hahahhaa!!

It's 1:12am! Not sleepy at all.. hmm............................... body clock kinda screwed again.

Hope there's more redpackets to collect tomorrow ^-^

Goodnight everyone!

Photo spammm!!!!!

2012-01-21T22:23:00.000-08:00

Reunion dinner!

CNY celebration in schl ;)

A year ago.

2012-01-18T07:02:00.000-08:00

Chinese new year ( 2011 ) A YEAR AGO BAYBEAR...

( with the paternal side )

Dad look so cute here.

And mom look so cute here. hahahahah.

The closer ones :)

Will be having my first reunion dinner tomorrow, together with the 60 others.
Hope it'll turn out fun ! :)

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS NEARING. ARE YOU EXCITED? :)

what on earth

2012-01-17T05:12:00.001-08:00

My life just revolves around school. It's the final year in college. Just a few more months and I'll be outta the school. This year, I told myself that I must work hard & play hard. True right? What's life without having fun? I know I'll be taking my A's this year. Honestly it doesn't even matter If I get lousy grades as long as I've tried my best. It's just the second week of school. I remember saying I'll compromise my social life & face the books. I've been doing it so far, and I feel kinda alienated already. It's just the second week for god's sake. Sigh.... Attire check today. I don't get why the school is so anal about every single thing. Once you're on the radar list, they'll just keep attacking you nonstop. Socks? Hair? Skirt? Being caught for attire for the first time in college & I still find it ridiculous. Look around and see, everyone's like that all the skirt length are about the same. Times like this I really miss international school where there's no school rules and nobody's there to care if your attire is inappropriate / you have your hair is dyed/ what kind of shoes you're wearing / whether or not your nails are painted etc. The list just goes on. Dammitt... second day of week2, I'm so mentally and physically tired. Trying my best to keep myself awake and focus in class and lectures all the time. Then I ask myself, what will life be if I continued studying in an international sch. Or what will life be if mom accepts the job in unitedstates & I migrate over to further my studies. Different. If PJC didn't accept me, I would be in melbourne now for foundation studies or I might be in US staying in Rose's house while mom works there. So since I chose this route to experience studying in a mainstream college life, I mustn't regret. This is also something I'll never experience if I actually chose the other two routes. Less than 1 more year to go, I mustn't give up half way. It gets tougher and I get stronger.

ps: I prefer typing when I'm lying down on my bed in my room instead of sitting in front of the computer blogging. My thoughts are deeper like that. Weird me.

This is Miho, my first Japanese friend, my first friend in international school :)
Spent 3 solid hours with her yesterday, and went back ard 11pm?
Fruitful day!

Maybe its just me

2012-01-14T08:21:00.001-08:00

Just like a shoe, if someone is meant for you, they'll fit perfectly. No struggling, no forcing, no pain.

It's Friday the 13th!

2012-01-13T01:55:00.000-08:00

Today's Friday the 13th!
I love Fridays! I end at 12pm on Fridays, how early ehhhh? :)
Met Andrea for a lil whilee & headed home.

Bunny bunny bunny bunny bunny. My cute favorite little bunny :)

I'M HOME EARLY BEF 6pm TODAY. hehehehehehe omg so boredddd but I love how I idle my time away. HAHAHAHAHAHA. ok retarded -____-"

End offf with my favvvvvv colour purple! baibaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii xxxxxx :)

Tired

2012-01-12T06:28:00.001-08:00

Managed to drag myself out of bed and get my fatass to school. Man.. It's just Thursday and I'm getting so tired. How can I even revise my work when I'm so tired after getting home.. school has been great just that I'm getting tired. I need my sleep.... :( dinner-ed with fad and nick at lot1, headed to aunt's place till night and I'm home. To sleep or to do gp homework? in a dilemma. Maybe I shall complete some now and continue in the bus tmr while I'm otw to school.

Tmr's friday 13th. It was my lucky day last year. how about this? :)

OPEN HOUSE!

2012-01-11T03:57:00.000-08:00

It's PJC open house today! Quite a chilllax day afterall. Quite a waste of time going to school bcse the only lesson I had was P.E. THAT'S ALL.... Tended the booth for a few hours. Explored the school myself too. Hehehehehe.

@ the art gallary.

Bam's art work :)

Davin's art work!

FEEYONAHH :)

MTC.

Tabletennis girls and Ms Lee ( cca teacher in charge )

Sudden flash mob.

Looookkk who came?!?!?!?!?! DEAREST MAEJEEEN.......

MJ in PJ uniform. ahhahahaha srsly look super like ITE uniform on her.

Brought her to Lot1 to have early dinner. It's her first time there. hahahahaha!!

Off to town after that~~~~ window shopped for awhile and decided to do our nails!

Homesweethome after that. :)

2ND DAY OF OPEN HOUSE TOMORROW. come come come..... join table tennis if not our cca will hv to close down. Table tennis is an awesome sport! Hehehehehehe k baii im so tired already.

First day of the school in 2012

2012-01-10T06:57:00.001-08:00

Long day today, school is not as bad as I thought it would be. The class is quieter now, much quieter. Things are different now. Glad I managed to stay happy by seeing the lively people in my class. Something really unexpected surprised me today and it added light to my day. 2012, you're just too nice to me. Is it because 2011 gave me hell last year? :)

Hell hole.

2012-01-09T06:58:00.000-08:00

Today supposed to be the first day of school for me. But I gave it a miss... I'm dreading to go school. Maybe I'm suffering from Didaskaleinophobia - Phobia of going to school. I really don't want to go to school. I don't think I'm happy when I'm in school. Honestly, I don't mind studying. But the thought of school actually freaks me out. First time feeling like that, I used to like school but not now. I forsee the repeated cycle going on and on and on like a loop machine. Hate the time wasted to travel to school, it's so far. Hate the fact that I have to face lecture notes and teachers. Hate the fact that I'll be taking Alvls this year. I don't want to be filled with negativity.

Alright, enough said. Gotta get back on track. School's tomorrow. There's nothing to fear of, it's the second year already :)

Please be a good day.

a very memorable night.

2012-01-08T04:19:00.000-08:00

One last night.

Zirca for spreadlove before schl starts. VIP and on DJtang's guestlist. Free drinks. Wee! Ok, I don't know how to type this in chronological order. SO YEAH -- Danced on the fucking podium. Got myself high as if i got possessed. Met new people but i forgot them already bcse I can't rly remember what happened. Got so drunk, got my bestfriends to takecare of me. Screamed and a lot of people asked me to shutup. Puked twice at home. Huimei puked more than 8 times, even outside the entrance. Sprained my neck. Lost my expensive bracelet. Back ache. Bruises all over. #storyoflastnight.

Schl's starting tomorrow. I GOTTA KEEP IT REAL.................

Love Story Taylor Swift meets Viva La Vida Coldplay

2012-01-06T22:51:00.001-08:00

WHO EVER DISLIKE THIS SERIOUS HAS SOME MENTAL PROBLEM.

Arranged by a loving dad, dedicated to his cute little 7-year-old daughter, Sarah.
There's a story behind it!!!!!
3:16 - 3: 45 AMAZING OMGAWDDD ............................................

Random thought

2012-01-06T09:40:00.001-08:00

People often say things which they don't actually mean. Why don't people just say what they mean and mean what they say? Is it so hard? If you're saying things just to impress, quit saying it. 90% of us does it. I'd appreciate it if you tell me the truth instead of lying. & the thing is that sometimes I can't differentiate between truthful words and lies. Why do I take this so seriously? It's because it irks me. I'll get so pissed off & annoyed seeing someone telling me something just to impress. No one ever considers the consequences of their words. No one ever holds responsibility to what they say. Major hate people who flatters me & compliments me. Coz I know they don't mean it anyway. Maybe I'm just generalizing through my own experience. Or maybe i'm just weird. I wonder if any one feels this way too.

Good to spill out my thoughts. Okiedokie. Im going to have a good sleep now :)

2012-01-06T08:48:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MIHO OHASHI! :)

Met the birthday girl at town, had lunch there and caught a movie.

WE BOUGHT A ZOO.... ahahahahaha!

PS : I really hate my hair...... what to do! I don't wanna have any regrets.

Don't wanna worry about the slightest thing. I don't want to anymore :)

Happy people, happy life

2012-01-05T02:49:00.001-08:00

I'm not gonna compete my journey with yours. My journey is my journey, not a competition. Yipppeeee! I'm living life the way I want. People around me are just so awesome. Making myself happy every single day. This is what I love most. School is starting in 4 days time. Going back to the hellhole! Not so prepared but it doesn't rlly matter. I just wanna stay happy :)

It's my life, it's now or never.

2012-01-04T01:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a good good night with Renchun, Wynton, Fab, Meiyin, Jun & Sam :)
Jst let the pictures do the talking. So lazy to blog elaborately.
Hehehee.

UGHH I HATE MY NEW HAIR CUT!!! :@
Yup! That's it! & our kbox fee was $317 bcse the drinks....
Cabbed home aftr midnight with Rc & Wyn, thankgod parents didn't nag or what bcse they're asleep.

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

overdued

2012-01-02T02:11:00.000-08:00

THAT DAY :)

Forever and ever.

New year, new hair cut

2012-01-01T03:39:00.001-08:00

Today's 1/1/2012. IT'S FINALLY 2012!!! hellyeahhhh. I know 2012 will be a very very lifeless & hectic year bcse I'll be facing books and dealing with ALvls! SUCKS TO BE A J2 THIS YEAR, but it's just one year more to clear. * SCREAMMMMSSSS*

Did nthg much today. woke up late, church with the family & relatives, lunch with all of them, went for a hair cut & homesweethome for dinner...

I'm blogging thru my iPhone & it's more convenient.... mwahahahaha.

New year resolutions!

2011-12-30T08:43:00.000-08:00

Shall do a long wordy update today bcse I'm in a good mood. Hehehehehe.
Weds- CCA camp, was so tiring!!!! and yeah, fun!!!! played game and I kept losing. AND THE PUNISHMENT WAS....... drinking some bitter medicine thing. Ewww... Met Keryn, Ahmad and De Silva that day. It was super impromtu. Received a text from hammy saying " shisha, yes/no? " ahahahahaha. Good catching up session with them~ :)

Thurs- Supposed to go Msia with the family. Changed of plans, headed to MBS for the whole day :)

Fri- Woke up late, shopped at vivo city and just got home!

OK, I WANNA SUMMARISE MY LIFE IN 2011. HAHAHAHAHAHA. ( IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER )

Out of private school and entered to Pioneer JC. ( WHAT WAS I THINKING? )
Met new friends, & was 241024689562918652 times quieter in this new environment.
Got in love.
Fell outta love. yeah fuck love man srsly. nothing but a bullshit.....................
Went BKK with Davin, Mabel and Nicholas
Late night outs with the usuals after exams
Less close to my beloved Grandfather
Got chased out of the house once ( recently. HAHAHAHA )
Took arts instead of science. ( I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING..........)
Eldest bro nearly turned the whole house upside down
Destroying my body
Stopped piano lessons
Spent a hell lot chasing my idol, xiaogui
Back to playing table tennis
Got my very first Moschino necklace & Michael Kors bag
Cried because of a guy
Promoted to JC2
Bestfriend not with me anymore bcse she's back in Malaysia studying
Nearly got sent to U.S.A to study
Attended a funeral
Auly, Vril, Sheena movie marathon & overnight at my house
Changed maid
Going to fleas and selling clothes in fleas
Drink drank drunk
Felt lonely at home when Bro's at RV dom & eldest bro in the army camp
Aunt's house became my second home
Grandpa and Granny got hospitalised
Godsis illness is not yet cured

This year, this is what happened to my international friends. sighhhhhhhhhzzzzzzzz...
-Sueanne is studying in UK
-Huimei is back in Malaysia to study
-Carolina is in UK studying
-Duylan is in UK studying
-Shelly is back in Indonesia with her family
-Miho went back to Japan
-Boss is back in Thailand
-Maejeen, Yf, Jeremy is in SIM & MJ is in Newyork now
-Rebecca is in ICS.
-Nigel went to poly
-Jingvin is back in Malaysia

:(((((((((( this is what I hate about international school. your friends just leave and you don't know when you'll get to see them. IT'S SO HARD TO REUNITE BECAUSE EVERYBODY IS SCATTERED ALL AROUND. I miss those days whr we just chill after school and play our asssss off every single day. That's LIFE.

WALAO EH OMG WHY IS 2011 SUCHA BAD YEAR FOR ME....................................
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So overall , i achieved 8 goals , failed 2 :)
Pretty alright aye , for mee !!

How about this year ? What will be my new year resolutions ? ...

Happiness ( as always )
Meet more friendly and funny people because i'll be entering a completely new school :o
Pass IGCSE with at least 3As ? ( HAHA LILYN CAN OR NOT ? )
Get into a prestigious school .
Cut down on shopping .
Stop eating so much and growing side ways.
Gain more of parent's trust .
Don't mix with bad companies.
SLIMMER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WORLD PEACE.

THAT'S ALL ! 2010 had been a freaking marvellous year, hope 2011 will be even better :D!

Happiness ( as always )
MEHHH, OVERALL FAILED.
Meet more friendly and funny people because i'll be entering a completely new school :o
ACHIEVED.
Pass IGCSE with at least 3As ? ( HAHA LILYN CAN OR NOT ? )
ACHIEVED. HEHEHEHE I MADE IT YO. :) As for Business, Maths and Econs and Chinese.
Get into a prestigious school .
ACHIEVED ( PJC IS STILL A JUNIOR COLLEGE )
Cut down on shopping .
FAILED
Stop eating so much and growing side ways.
ACHIEVED
Gain more of parent's trust .
MEHHH, ACTUALLY I DONT KNOW NOW.
Don't mix with bad companies.
ACHIEVED
SLIMMER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ACHIEVED. Hahahah thanks to the month of october.........................
WORLD PEACE.
FAILED. you see all the natural disasters and all, how to live peacefully?!

Achieved 6, Failed 4. OVERALL, I HATE 2011 A HELL LOT. CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO PASS...... SERIOUSLY 2011 IS THE MOST SUCK-EST YEAR EVER. HAHAHAHA....

New year resolution for 2012....... :))))
1)Study hard for Alvls and get out from PJC.
2)Not get distracted by anyone especially dumbell.
3)Spend more time with my family especially my grandfather.
4)Avoid alcohol.
5)Resolution to my happiness - not let those around me affect me negatively.
6)Don't get in love.
7)Stop spending so much.
8)Be more confident of myself.
9)Stop chasing xiaogui( If not I'll start the whole xiaogui craze again and skip school just to see him).
10)Concentrate on my studies and be determined to complete As.

Okay, that's it :) Hope that 2012 will really be a better year. I'm quite certain about it. BYE-BYE 2011, YOU SUCK. YOU REALLY DO, AND I'M GLAD IT'S GONNA BE OVER.............................

SMILE BECAUSE TOMORROW IS..............

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEE :)))))))))))))))))

27.12.2011

2011-12-27T09:14:00.000-08:00

It's the second day of christmas yo! For me, the christmas spirit hasn't die down yet.

Met the girls in the afternoon. It has been a long time since I last saw them bcse everyone is busy & it's hard to coordinate a day for everyone to meet. Surprisingly, I was ON TIME ( in fact, earlier ). So I shopped around Raffles City alone first, many things caught my eye :o ! but nonono.....

Played bowling with the girls and Joyce's boyfriend is so nice to treat us although we rejected it. Thankyou :)

The two towers ( so talll )

MICHELLE SO CUTE. AHAHAHHAHAA.

This pyc camera shy so didn't take any picture of her......

Went to meet STARRS. LOLLLLLLLLLL ( DONT YOU FIND THIS NAME SO FAMILIAR ?! ) mwahahahahaha... Dearest Avril helped to queue at Astons first. It was sooooooo crowded. :o So we queued about 1hour and finally got a place to sit.

We stopped at plaza sing and asked a random dude to take picture of us with the big christmas tree. AND HE WAS SO FUNNY. LOL. Instead, he went to camwhore with his friend but my camera had some problem with the autofocus so it wasn't snapped down. He tried, tried and tried. & then he decided to take us instead, maybe he paiseh already since my camera cannot take near shots. HAHA WASTED!!

Pressies from all of us :)

STARRS. HAHAHAHAHA. xx

Walked around town again/~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Town is so boring but it's the company that makes everything so fun!

Girls, you make my day!!! :)

* blows flying kisses *

Time check 1:19am, CCA CAMP TOMORROW. TABLE TENNIS. HIAKHIAK. goodnight~~~

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

2011-12-26T02:34:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Haven't been updating for a long time, bcse I'm really busy! I don't even have time to use com & update a short post. Normally, I'll write a post before christmas and write all my wishlist down. Last year, I've got all of what I wanted. This year, I didn't wish for any thing. I don't wanna wish for anything but happiness. I think I should be really really thankful to God for what I have and I shouldn't ask for more. Christmas is a joyful season of thanks giving, you give but you don't expect any in return. You give presents and forgive like how we wanna thank God for everything and forgive everyone like how he always do. I believe that he'll restore and heal us during this season :)

Christmas party and Xinyi 's house.
Jo invited me over and I know only 3 of them, there are 16 people all together for the night and they're all around 23 years old. I told them I'm only 17 years old and they don't really believe. HAHAHAHAHA. All of them are funny and nice. Had baileys and chivas for the night.

This guy is nice, hahahaha. He lent me his DSLR flash and taught me how to use it. lollll !!!

Playing games and the loser have to drink.

Xinyi's collection of vodka. She has like 20 over bottles of it?! and some limited edition. Super cool!

Presents... hehehe.

Went to church on christmas eve.

Got invited by Shalom to City Harvest & met a few of my primary school mates there. :)

THEY ARE ALL SEC 3 ONLY. OMAIGOD RIGHT, and they're taller than me when I'm 162cm :(
What on earth right........................

Went home after that, and had a party at home :)

another log cake!

Winnie the pooh!

At night, I went to midnight church mass at St Marys with Anna, Alvin, Winnie, Karen, Pongpong. :) The mass starts at 12am sharp till 1am.

Went for midnight supper with them & alv send me home past midnight :))))))))))))))))))))))

Woke up around noon on christmas day itself! Headed to Town to get my nails done alone while the guys loitered in FEP waiting for me. hahahaha! yay!! I've got my purple nails xx :))))))))) That dragon is so sweet, he made an origami card for us!! HAHAHA.

Exchanged with JW christmas present after that as well.

The three musketeers.

Mommy called me after that coz I gotta be back by 6pm as we have to head to Daryl's house for BBQ!!!! She know I was at town so she called me to go to Michael Kors. AND SHE BOUGHT A BAG instantly for me bcse I said it was nice. ahahaha!! * ok, wait... it's meant for us sharing *. I love it !!!!!

Today, I went to meet the usuals, exchanged pressies and head home!
Dinner at home with the family, and mommy's collegue's korean kids came over for dinner as well.
THEY ARE SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cute korean babies, aww. & I spammed 1 polaroid films for them.

OK I GOTTA GO AND ENTERTAIN THEM NOW BAIBAIIII xx. MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL. LILYN LOVES YOU. HEHEHEHE!!!

Christmas is nearing!!

2011-12-22T09:42:00.000-08:00

Christmas is nearing hehehehe! I'm getting more and more excited each day!

Yesterday Yh cabbed to my house and pick me up, we picked bam up and off to haji lane. Accompanied that girl to see clothes @ Modparade. MEHHHHHH, nothing much and it's quite disappointing. Nevermind, at least I got to see that girl, hehehehehe. Went to ilovetaimei to have a snack and off to town with yh. Shopped the whole day, bought stuff from topshop and spent 2hrs in Abercrombie & Fitch. It's my first time to sgpore's outlet. Pretty different from the ones I went to in oversea. It's much bigger & look more classy??? Persuaded him to get a top from there and we spent $430 there. Mad of what but I rlly love what I bought! I bought the guy's one bcse I liked the design a lot so it's a little big. No regrets! Walked to cine and he cabbed me home after that before gg for a party.

Went to Gym today @ Phillip wain with Shalom. I OVERSLEPT, omg i feel so bad. Rushed and get outta the house within 15mins. Spent 1 hour in gym, attended some Latin dance class after that. Super tiring! Shalom left earlier and I was all alone with all the taitai... quite awkward! I don't like attending big dance classes, so embarrassing. Thankfully they're all in their forties? & no one will actually judge. Mwahahaha! Sweat a hell lot today and I really admire those taitai that join the classes so often, their stamina is so much better than me. Lunched there, sauna & steam bath alone. Enjoy my time alone so much, really! Went over to Tim's place > home > change to platforms & change bag > off to town to meet the girls.

Celebrated Keryn's belated birthday today, it was supposed to be a surprise but nay, not really a surprise after all. Thanks for the day girls! ( Keryn, Minni, Amyraa, Vaisnavi ) We enjoyed ourselves :)

Supper with the the others at newton & home sweet home. I'm so tired already. Gosh.

Will be super busy tomorrow! Out from morning till midnight.
Morning - Gym with Shalom at 10.30am.
              - Metabolism yoga class from 11.30-12.30
Noon     - Facial.
              - Meet Timmy awhile
Night      - Xinyi's house for early christmas party till late late late night.

AND... NO, I'M NOT GOING AZZURA TOMORROW.
Tmr is gonna be a fun day, yes it will ! :)

hey babu

2011-12-19T05:47:00.000-08:00

V lazy to elaborate what I did in the noon etcetc........
I got quite annoyed by evryone for the whole day bcse I had a bad night for 3 days in a row. mehhh.

Went butter with Daryl, Gene and Zhong and I actually scolded Daryl " you dumb or what sia, ask me this question " jst bcse he asked me a question I didn't wanna answer. SORRY DARYL :(((((((((((((((

Met Suman, Yonghong nd Weiting at night around 9.30.

Two gays

Walk around shirtless in clarkequay, yh's dare. hahahaha!!

Went back 2+am. so god damn frigging tired. I'm actually lazy to go out already. -_____________-"

I'm done the with Bangkok video! hehehe.

OK BYEEE

Bowling with the guys.

2011-12-18T02:04:00.000-08:00

Woke up super late bcse of the previous night.
Met the guys @ 4.30pm. BUT I'M LATE, YEAH I'M ALWAYS LATE. RAHHH.
( but sometimes there're people later than me )

I was so scared to take the north-south line. It was so empty that the seats are not not occupied. WEIRD RIGHT? hmm........

Bowling at Safra, played pool and home for steamboat.
Pictures taken from instalgram :)

They said that the way I play pool is like hunting................... -_______-"

GUMMY BEARS YO.

Darius, Lyn and Changlong :)

Trust

2011-12-17T07:12:00.000-08:00

My life's not for others to know right. I'm always living in this denial world of mine. No one understands me because I'm way too complicated. Sorry, but I can't live up to your expectations. I'm not who you think I am. I am Me.

I'll end off here.

Madthrills.

2011-12-16T11:15:00.000-08:00

Now i unds why people lie, lie and lie... maybe i shld learn how to lie. srsly hate telling the truth all the time and things don't get in my way. & sometimes it doesn't do me any good telling the truth. People lie, lie and lie all the time. Everyone cheats, yeah everyone! I shld learn how to, is it rlly btr being a liar? Will life be more interesting lying others and not get lied to? I wonder.....
I agree with most of th ppl, worst night ever when mom threatened to call the cops to raid zirca if i don't go back by 12.30am. wtf is wrong, i don't geddit rlly.................. NO LOGIC!

zxczxczxc

2011-12-15T09:46:00.000-08:00

Weds

Nthg much happened on Weds. Just went to school for training like a good girl..... not everyone turned up, there was only 6 of us plus the coach. A productive training though, must keep up with my stamina. Went Lot1 with most of the cca mates. Loitered there around & spent $77 just like that. I wished I had perfect eyesight so I don't hv to spend money on contact lenses. ffffffffffffffff man.

Went to Huiting's house aftr that to play tabletennis with her. Initially Mumu said that it's being booked by someone from 7-9pm, I think she must be hearing ghost or smthg, hahahaha. Coz there was no one there at all but the net was there. Yup, played for 2hrs & had a friendly match. I enjoy playing with different people actually so I can secretly pick up more skills. HEEEHEHEEHEHEE ^-^. Chilled and cool down at her house awhile. Mumu is so cute awww. I wished she was my helper as well :) Lucky them. Thank god no one was at home if not i'll be so awkward. Walked to railway, had supper @ coffee bean, chatted awhile and reached home around 11pm :)

DOZED OFF ON THE SOFA TILL 1am. hahahah imagine how stink I am la ewwwww and no one woke me up coz everyone was asleep already. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.................................

Today

Woke up late & met my dearest Maejeen! HEHEHEHE.

We did it yo! PEW PEW PEW PEW PEW * fireworks *.

She said " wah u paranoid like fuck, i thought i was bad but you're x100 times worse "

We look like ghosts. Don't we?

Headed to Raffles place to meet the 6 other people - Kyarwam, Gaojie, Marx, Tarol, Haiwen and Joey :)
I received the text from Joey saying " meet at Marina bay link at raffles place " and I thought it was at City hall so I alighted there and waited for her like a goondooooo. Then she called and said " Im here at raffles city already " confusing like hellll omggggggg!!! & the guys went to Marina bay sands instead. hahahahha thr was confusion among all of us. Bad planning guys :P

So I met Joey first and had some froyos @ redmango while waiting for the rest to walk over from MBS. & kw was stuck in cityhall mrt bcse the train terminated there.... zzzzzzzzzzzzz....

See Tarol's hair! omgosh -_____________-" hahaha.

The VIP for the day - TAROL.

Glad he had fun studying in Chicago. Welcome back to sgpore! :)

Left slightly early, when Gaojie, Kyarwam and Haiwen arrived bcse I wanted to be a goodgirl and go home earlier bcse I'v been out so till late these few days. & I wanted to accompany mommy at home too. BUT THE DAMN RED LINE GOT TERMINATED. what the flying fuck right. -___- "

Drama for the day.

1) Left at 7.50pm, walked to raffles city mrt, and realised the mrt line got terminated. & it was so chaotic there.

2) Tapped out and decided to take cab, but the taxi queue was snaking long! It's really CRAZY and it's ridiculous bcse the queue wasn't moving at all.

3) Called cab but they kept asking me to hold on the line, so I got really pissed. ( imagine if i managed to get thru, and got a cab, the starting fee will be about $10+ ?!?!?!?! including booking fee, starting fee, extra charges for CBD area, peak hour charges etc ) THIS IS SGPORE.

4) Went back to Mrt station & took green line to cityhall, yeah chaotic tooooo bcse of the repeated announcements and complains.

5) Went to taxi stand but the queue was also MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD long. I think I'll have to queue for at least 1-2 hrs if I joined the queue, no joke man.

6) Anyhow walk to any bus stop like a angsty lost kid and board any bus ( i think it was 700A )

7) JAMMED ALL THE WAY, it didn't move at all and the whole row were buses that didn't move.

8) Alighted after 4 stops ( which took 40 mins, yes it was that bad ) and the bus wasn't moving at all, it'll take me forever to reach home.

9) Walked from Dohby Gaut to Orchard 313 and called mommy to pick me up from there.

10) Waited for mommy for 10mins, mommy to the rescueeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

In total, I took 2.5hrs to reach home. Wasted my time man.......

Okay, I'm gonna turn in now. Long day ahead tmr with my girls. Gnightttt xxxxxxx.

Well.

2011-12-13T10:26:00.000-08:00

12th dec.
WOKE UP LATEEE, overslept once again.
Met up with Changlong, had a super long talk with him & that guy has so much amazing wise words! He's really something!!!!! Waited for the slowpoke Darius to arrive, chatted awhile and I left ~.

Off to meet Miho! Went to Bugis to get something done, but FAIL. so fail....................... Dammit, this is why i wanna be 18 so badly. ( ok wait, maybe once I turn 18, evrything's not thrilling anymore ). NVM I'LL TRY IT AGAIN. * persistent face * hmpphhhhhhhh. Quite a wasted trip for that? But on the other hand least I got to catch up with her :)

Off to town last minute after receiving a text from becky! Dinner with Shelly, Boss and Her. Had so much fun laughing my assss off bcse we did stupid stuffs while having dinner. This Shelly secretly video-ed it down somemore. Ok lyn, must maintain! hahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

@ Marche! * look!! boss cut his hair like FINALLY *

Later in the night, I met my dearest sheeenaaaa and avrilllllll !!!!!! sheena was especially stoked man. ahahahaha. we were all spamming whatsapp on what to do for the night.

SOOOOO, THIS IS WHAT WE DID.

1) Watched Shutter ( in thai ) and screamed like one total loser. mwahahahaha.

2) Stalked pretty people's blog

3) Watched a little of 40 year old virgin ( but it was too draggy )

4) Ate 30 satays, one big hokkien mee and black carrot cake from newton at 1+ am?!Yumyummyy!

5) Watched a little of my sisters keeper.

6) Talked for hoursssss overnight and slept around 4am ?!?!?!

I enjoyed my day with all of y'allll ^_^!

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13 DEC

Woke up with the girls around NOON time. We're terrible pigs. hahahahahahahahaaaaa!!!

Spagetthi and pizza for lunch. YUMMY!!! A routine for me to eat, sleep , go out most of the time during holidays.

Cabbed down to Lucky chinatown for kbox!!!!!!!! woohooo!!!!!!! yeah, kbox again nd again.

I'm so blessed who have friends who love singing just like me.

Avril's trademark face.... walao i look like some.. DEER?

My bieber hehehehe xx

Sexy 171cm sheena . winkwink.

Left around 6pm, met Karen and Jo after that.

Went to find Qi awhile and went Shoe shopping with them. I was so determined not to buy anything, srslyyyy determined! At first I saw this particular pair and I was hesitating if i shld get it. I didn't want it THAT much but the thing is that the price was about 50$, so reasonable! So i sat down there hesitating if i shld get it while Karen and Jo were trying their pairs. Then i turned behind and saw SMTHG THAT RLLY CAUGHT MY EYES *.*!!!!!! and it was limited edition and the last pair. DYING TO GET IT INSIDE ME. yeah, but it is more priceyyyyyy and i've been overspending so fml. Both of them convinced me to buy it so yeah, i bought it $.$ ! Really not gonna spend anything for this week alr.

Deciding whr to go after that. We spent almost an hour in that shoe shop.......... ahahahahaha! Why is sgpore so small ?! So we bought some snacks and sit down somewhr and enjoy our food...

Training tomorrow :)

Yeah, I compromise going out with my friends for training. I wanna stay fit yo! stay fit w/o spending any money. teeeheee!

Gnighttt time check - 2:25am

Let's stay fit.

2011-12-11T00:15:00.001-08:00

TOWN!!!!!
Centre point > 313 > Taka > Paragon > Home. Christmas shopping! woots...... Honestly, I love christmas more than chinese new year. I rather get presents than money. Christmas is more fun with friends and family. AND I'M ALWAYS LOOKING FORWARD FOR CHRISTMAS! Christmas presents always worth more than any angpow money i receive from aunty/uncles/cousins. So, be prepared to burn a hole in your pocket! Spent so much yesterday, bought x his christmas present. It's the most expensive present I ever spent in my life omgosh. Bank account deplete by hundreds this week. I owe him too much. & i decided to buy him this during thanks giving season. Went paragon aftr that. Met audrey, scarlett and friend bcse they were doing metro CIP. I love gg in metro to try perfumes. I got this perfume fetish. mwahahahah. Then we enter TODS and they look me from head to toe ( fr what J told me). Yeah and it's so awk bcse i was wearing a tods shoe. I hate the service sector in sgpore. Rly to the core. &&&&& I saw a rly goddamnniceeeeeee burberry wallet but it's $1.2k. I can only choose 1 present for christmas from mum & dad. Idk if i shld get a canon g12 camera or tht. HOW YOU TELL ME T_T. I hate myself, i hate myself for being so fuckin' spoilt. so fuckin' demanding and materialistic. Not kd, but sometimes I reflect nd I cry bcse I knw i can't live life like this. Fml yes.

When i left, J asked to choose if I prefer Moschino/guess. hahahah & she got smthg fr thr. DAYUMZZ. she said " very nice leh, i make your heart itch till christmas. " and she said " i bought u the most ex one cos i love u too much " i love u god damn much also can. mwahmwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh xx ^-^. happygirl1994.

Received a text frm Joey asking me to swim. super random i swear. so i went home aftr that, grabbed my stuffs and off to Kw's house for a swim! yay! time to keep fit... Im such an kuku, I rushed too fast that I forgot to bring swimming goggles/shampoo/ facial wash/body soap. hahahaha what th flying fuck was i doing. & i forgot to bring my makeup removal as well. So i had to go NTUC and buy, retarded shit. Too excited to swim whn evryone's at zouk out. hahahahahahahahahhaa.

HAHA THIS PIC SO FUNNYY, i was calling Yj to ask how to use the camera. LOL.

Competing to see who's eyes is the biggest. HAHA

Marx looks happy hanging me. evil !!!

Walked to subway aftr tht & caught the eclipse!!!!

I rmbed making a wish the other time when i saw the red bloody moon, mehhh..

Bullshit, hahaha it didn't come true .. it'll nv will anyway. hahahaahahahahhahahahaha.

Let's continue to stay fit!!!

BANGKOK WITH MTC

2011-12-10T06:39:00.001-08:00

This whole post will be about my trip to bkk :)

Didn't really took much pictures bcse most of the time we're shopping and it's so annoying to snap pics.

& also, i didn't hv any make up on, yucks......................................... plain face.

Bam and I :)

Cam whoring in the hotel room

Breakfast in the morning, we wake up every morning around 7-8am to hv breakfast together to make the whole thing worth-it. haahahahahaha! not bad the breakfast ! :D amazingly, I could wake up!!

Bam, Me and Nick!

SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!! the security guard was like giving us the signal to stop taking pictures. lol!!!

Lunching at MBK :)

HAHAHAHAHA SEXY DAVIN. He's immitating somebody actually.
omg hilarious like shit this pic.

Aunty annes!!!!! @ MBK :) resting our feett.

Tired to smile.... waiting to get a seat in MK restaurant.

Back at the hotel.
FASHION SHOW FOR THE NIGHT. HAHAHAHA.

* Bam wearing her new clothes alr *

This is the night we dancedddddd in the room like mad kids.
All of us wearing the same shirt, so gay!!

4 of us before we leave for our shoppingggggg trip!!!!!!!!!!

This is the day whr we walked from morning till 2am....... IT WAS CRAZY.
Walked non-stop. & our last stop was khlong night market.
It was too big to walk finish, we walked like half of it only? & we were super tired so we decided to stop.
Met a cool thai guy there, so hip and cute!!

China town the last day! :)
Nthg much, it's kinda boring there.....
Just lunched thr and walk ard that's all :)

CHEERSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

We took a few vids, we put them tgt soon :)

Thanks guys for making the trip a very memorable one. love you three a hell lot! xx

Im back!!

2011-12-09T00:25:00.001-08:00

HELLO !!! ^^v okay I'm back from bangkok.
Walked at least 10km evryday ( no joke! ) .
Ate at somboon restaurant twice throughout the 4 days trip, IT'S TOO YUMMY.
Comparable to longbeach & jumbo seafood restaurant. :)

Shopped every single day with Davin, Mabel and Nick.
You three make the whole trip very memorable, especially the 3rd night where we head to khlong night market.
IT WAS CRAZY, we walked and shopped for hours. Non-stop and went back at 2am....
Yeah, and i got to see trannies, they're so prettyyy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~.

Took very few pictures bcse most of the time we were busy eating and shopping.
Played truth and dare for the first night, second night we danced in the room and third night, ZONKED out.
I can't find all the pictures and crazy videos we took in bkk bcse I lent my bro my camera for his prom night.
AND MY PICS FROM BKK DISAPPEARED. I KNOW WHATDAFUG......... Got a feeling he deleted evrything, omg omg omg. I can cry.............

Received a few text while I'm away, sorry i cldn't reply bcse I'm not in sgpore.
I HAVE NO ROAMING :(((((((((((((((((((((((

Last minute lunch with Russ.
This is so retarded, I got mindfucked by that guy. I cabbed from home to Tanglin to pick him up and went to SICC.
( when SICC is just 3 minutes away from my place )
Hahahahah whtevr, he paid for lunch and I paid for cab for two ways.

PS. I DIDNT DYE MY HAIR AGAIN.

TATA! :P NEXT POST WILL BE ABOUT BKK . ( HOPEFULLY I FIND THE PICS )

Bowling

2011-12-03T07:51:00.001-08:00

Haven't bowled for quite a while.
I remembered when we were young, my parents will bring us to bowl every week.
I remembered the times whr yanxuan, amber, maejeen, sueanne, jocelyn etc and I used to bowl after school.
FOR EVERY SINGLE WEEK.
Those days were memorable :)

Jo picked me up today & we headed to marina for bowling with Alv and Win.
Waited for 2 hours bcse it was so packed....................
Dined at Mr. Curry. It was my first time there... everything there is curry-related.
Curry lovers will love to dine at that place....

I swear this this picture is a candid one. hahaha! I was talking to Alv and Jo snap a shot of it.
( SHE SPAMMED IT ....... )

Wore my specs the whole day bcse I cldnt find my contact lens :(

EARTHQUAKE FROM MR CURRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yummyzz

First game.
Winner - Alv.

Second game.
Winner : MEEEEE ^-^

Walked ard marina till night & they send me home :)

FINALLLYYYYY, I'M GOING BANGKOK WITH MY LOVELY MTC, ( DAVIN,MABEL,NICK) TOMORROW! I'M SOOO EXCITEDD HEHEEEEE. SO I WON'T BE UPDATING TILL I'M BACK ON THURSDAY.

TAKECARE XX

definitely maybe

2011-12-01T22:12:00.001-08:00

Spent my afternoon with Jo & Qi...

Went to find her at her shop, and helped Jo choose her shoes.

SHE BOUGHT 2 CONVERSE SHOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

Jo send me to Haji lane in the evening to meet Huiting.

Had to leave bcse they wanted to see my ID.

I rlly rlly rlly rlllyyyy x532895712589125 hate not being 18.

I always get questioned and asked to show my ID. ALWAYS................. fml man srsly.

& the worst thing is I can't lie for nuts... my face will turn pale and I'll be speechless.

Wait till I'm really 18. one more year and i'll throw my ID right in your face man....

The second place we chilled at was lenient... :)

Walked ard in rounds, so many cats around yucks.... but cats are freakish-ly cute.

Many shop houses were close bcse it was late already.

Cats in the shops! WHO WILL ENTER?! not me! i'm so scared of cats..............................

Wanted to cab back tgt but there was no cabbieeee :(
Maybe it was close to midnight & the cabbies decide to MIA-ed awhile and reappear after midnight.
SO THAT THEY CAN HAVE 50% MORE EXTRA CHARGES. *evil chuckle*
So we walked around like some stranded hobos.............................................
& guess what, we ended up taking 170 tgt.

Great day with Jo, Qi and Ting :)))))

Better off?

2011-11-29T20:48:00.001-08:00

Multiple choice question.

a) I hate you but I love you more.

b) I wish you could understand how I feel.

C) I wish I had never met you.

d) I wish you didn't change.

e) I wish we were never together.

f) I wish you would stay.

g) All of the above.

Answer : G

Just like the multiple choice question, we've so many options to choose from. Umm... From the start, I'm always an option. An option that you'll never choose anyway. An option to distract you from choosing right one. Don't know if I should be happy or sad or relieve or jealous. I think it's all of the above again. Lost what I had & there's nothing to be afraid of. I hate dealing with everything I miss about you, hate having flashbacks, hate surrendering. At least you've got what you want, and I'm happy for you :)

Byebyee :(

2011-11-27T22:57:00.001-08:00

HAPPY 28TH BIRTHDAY XIAOGUI :)

27th november.

He came back sgpore on 26th again! :)

Bought his new album and he sign my name on the album & drew a heartshape on my poster.

Hahahahahahaha so so so so so happy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Queued up for the autograph session from morning & was standing at the 2nd row.

The first row people queued from 4am, crazy x.x I can't wake up!

Chased after autograph session, and got lost! because we guessed that he came out from the wrong exit.... the other vans also couldn't find his van. then we started to panic... so we guessed that he will be rehearsing at MBS for the comchest event. And we were right :)

HE WAS A HAPPY BOY THAT DAY !!!!!!! keep smiling non-stop and interacting....

After rehearsal, we went to eat bakuteh at rangoon road? and it was raining heavily.
So i asked him if he brought umbrella bcse all of us don't have.
And he said " 你们应该放在包包里面啊，我也没带。没关系，我们在这里等雨停。"
hahahahaha and I wished the rain didn't stop at all! heheheheh.
we waited for a while till the rain stopped, and we chatted for quite awhile.
He told us stuffs & all of us were MELTINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG omg.. hahahaha.

After bakuteh, we went to marina to get his birthday cake while he went to hotel to get ready...
Bought gongcha ( but sadly no more his face as the cover lid ) nvm ! it means that nobody will poke his face. hehehehehehehee........

Waited at the hotel after buying the cake & we walked him to MBS for comchest bcse he'll be performing... Screamed like there's no end, kept jumping with the rest and I was out of breath after awhile. hahahahaha, super fun & i was so afraid that I'll be caught on teevee :o! I've no more voice nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww................ my throat hurts like a bitch. But it's all worth it ! :)

In total, I spent about $400+ ?! for all the chasing and all the albums / posters etcetc.............
One week passed so quickly, yesterday was the most fun and memorable bcse we talked a lot.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, can't wait for february bcse he'll be back in sgpore.

谢谢你黄鸿升！我们会永远支持你！生日快乐，　加油！！！！！！！！！

Everything that fits.

2011-11-26T04:21:00.001-08:00

EVERTHING THAT FITS

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Alien hhs.

2011-11-22T20:06:00.000-08:00

This whole post will be about Xiaogui... Hehehehee.
Day one ( Sunday )

YESSS, SGPORE LOVESS YOU!!!

hahahaha i find this pic super funny. we have 4 vans in total that chase on the first day. We must RUN to our van to catch up with xiaogui's van...

Lunch at boontongkee at balestier :)

That day I rushed out because I was afraid I can't make it to the airport on time, make up less face :(

Out from the hotel. WE WAITED FOR 5HRS IN THE VAN! Then, we headed to dempsy for Jumbo seafood. :)

Yummy yummy crab! His favorite!!

Day 2 ( monday )

I was in school, so i only chased after school.
He went shopping the whole day - Taka, Ion, Paragon...

ALL OF US WERE LIKE BODY GUARD. lolll it was so awk bcse i was the only one wearing uni.

Those sec schl kids are having holidays & the older people took MC.

I was beside him or behind all along, hahaha best feeling man.

Day 3 ( Tuesday )

Had school again. grrrr.............. so couldn't chase in the morning.

He had this event at Suntec convention centre bookfest.

This is so cute, hahahaha he is forever forgetting lyrics! LOLLLLLLLLLL.

Went home to bathe and got ready for gala premiere for his movie with michelle chong.

ALREADY FAMOUS! 一泡而红

The gala tix is so expensive, $30 per tix ! but we're lucky because he came in the theatre and talked to us. Saw many local artiste like cynthia koh, nat ho, patricia mok etcetc...

Ok, honestly speaking, the movie is just average only because it's kinda draggy. Not as good as I expected but it's nice because there's xiaogui in it. The whole cinema was quite noisy because of all the screaming when xiaogui appeared in the scene. Saw many of my friends as calefare in the movie as well. hahahahahah it was funnayeeee. You guys must go and support Michelle though, because this is her first time directing a film, & she's the female lead. The sneaks is from 24th november, official date of the release of the movie is 1st december :)

Day 4 ( Weds )

I didn't go school on wednesday because I couldn't wake up.

Also, school will end late and I needa rush to plaza sing for autograph session.

Queued for about 5hrs with Qiuyan & it rained.... thankfully we were under the shelter :)

Two deep dimples :D

Spot mee..... omg retarded. hahahahaha.

I can faint... this pic is super cute omg.

3 vans chasing!

Dinner place @ XHS... waiting for him to come down. heheee.

Day5 ( thursday )

Didn't send him off to airport because it's so early in the morning & I have to go school :(

Sighhhhhhh........

Nevermind, he's coming back on saturday :))))))))))))))))))

Will update soon xx.

漂流瓶

2011-11-21T06:31:00.000-08:00

I know what I can say and what not on my blog.
It's quite sad to be restricted, but it's ok.
I know this space is not a safe place...........
Sometimes I feel like privating it, & then I'll ask myself " Is it necessary? "

4 more days and school's over.
I. CANT. WAIT!

Look at the MV, it's super sweet :)

Glass house.

2011-11-19T07:06:00.001-08:00

Singapore is one little dot, it's so small....
All along I knew her, I knew they were siblings. But today, it struck me suddenly that his sister is actually that huiting. I only realized it today that it was the same person. How could I?!?! What have I been thinking all these months? How can I forget that it was her? Hahahaha. Ok I was being blur for the past few months...

All of us were whatsapping and then alvin added demifoo in. I was like ' WHUT ON EARTH....' and her reaction was like WTF too. We had random chats like diarrhea bcse she had diarrhea today. & the funny thing is that she said " my sibling's shit is more stink than mine ". hahahaha. Alvin picked Huiting from her house and then came my house to pick me up. We chatted about Peiyi, Jiahui and the rest...

Headed to the glass house for F&C. The ambience was good ! The had live band there & they were awesomeeeeeeeeeee. Talked non-stop while we waited for the food. & I realised that they're so different. Really really really different in all ways. Yup, & I must remember what huiting told me. :)

Walked to Cathay & bought Gongcha!!!!!! Wheeee. Alvin was so nice to give me the Gongcha that has Xiaogui's picture on it. Heheheheeeeee !!!!! After chilling at town, we didnt know what to do, it was still early 10+ only. Wanted to go huiting's house bcse her parents are not in sgpore & her sist and inlaw are playing mahjong. Alvin wanted to go bcse he's a mahjong king! It'll be fuckin' awkward if we really went o.o omygod, beyond imagination................

The girls that grew up with me.

2011-11-18T21:12:00.001-08:00

Out with my girls, haven't met them for quite a while. So happy to spend time with them again. We wanted to catch the movie 23:59 at first but the tickets sold out. And there was no other show time nearby too. Dine at HK Xingwang cafe. Walked around town and went to Holland V around 11plus to find Aulydia that little princess. I found a way to mass upload photos on blog! Photo spams ^-^v

I LOVE YOU GIRLS ! :)

2011-11-18T01:12:00.001-08:00

也许爱情是一部忧伤的童话。又发现另一个事情。我不想再发现有关你的事，因为我知道我又没资格说些什么了。这只是另一障碍... 也许你这么做是为我好的?　也许，希望是．．．信任.信任什么鬼屁？！=_="

Results day.

2011-11-17T07:39:00.001-08:00

I got promoted to J2 ! :)

Okay, I don't really know if I should feel happy or sad. More of the worried side? So, 5 people from my class are not gonna be with us. 11A07 won't be the same anymore. Actually I wasn't that scared in the morning before collecting my result. It's more like " should I continue studying in JC even if I promote or retain? " So yeah, I scrap through this time round. My midyears was so bad, I got ungraded for all my h2s, and a sub-pass for my h1. I thought I couldn't make it... Then, I found my motivation halfway. & I made that promise outside my house with him, with my pinky finger that I'll try my best and work hard and promote together with him. Yup, I did... I know that doesn't count anymore. But a promise is still a promise anyway. I gotta thank my friends for pushing me hard, waking sense in me... especially Davin, Mabel, Nick. They helped me A LOT for geography. Also, Yonghong & Brenda for constantly motivating me... I'm happy for Brenda and I, I think we tried our best and we scrap through this time. We know our results are not fantastic, but at least we tried. I learnt something. Never give up even you know chances are slim because you are never a looser until you quit trying. Boring lectures start tomorrow, persevere for one more week and it's the official holiday. Say hoooorayyyyeeee ^-^v

When the world says, “Give up,” Hope whispers, “Try it one more time.”

2011-11-16T02:32:00.001-08:00

Kbox with Minni and Brenda :)

Finally signed up for kbox membership card. GAHH.... should have signed up earlier right?!

Had fun with the two little cutieeee.

Haji lane with Maejeen, Shelly and Boss :)

Headed to the trillum.... this yifeng kept cracking jokes AS USUAL.
I couldn't stop laughing at the arguments between Shelly and Yf.
I'm even smiling while typing this down....

Just got back from dinner with family @ vivo... super fullllll x.x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY, YOU'RE THE BEST DADDY ON EARTH. I LOVE YOU DADDY!!!

During PW week.

2011-11-13T05:23:00.001-08:00

These are pictures taken from my iPad during the PW intensive week.

I kinda enjoy PW intensive week because we do nothing but PW....

Filming, editing OP slides, watching movie in class, watching other groups present etcetc...

PW IS GONNA END.............

Say hello to bwennieee. hahahahha her face is super cuteeee here.

Fadil and Brandon...
" IM MACHO AND I KNOW IT"

( my ipad have photo spams of them )

I find this picture very funny. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

This is Hammie :)

Davin & Mabel.... Nick was supposed to come in, & I remembered that we ran away from him. HAHAHA.

Ok, last but not least, MTC ^^

It's oral presentation tomorrow. I'm nervous. I'm scared I'll freak out & screw it up...

GOD, PLEASE BE WITH ME AND GUIDE ME THROUGH...

This is the last component. I really hope that everything will run through smoothly.

Goodluck to my group & my fellow classmates for OP tomorrow.

Lets say BYE to project work :)

Atelophobia

2011-11-12T01:15:00.001-08:00

Suffering from Atelophobia.
I'm never confident of myself.

My Idol.

2011-11-10T04:16:00.001-08:00

Ok, I'm so happy now bcse xiaogui is coming sgpore!
Received the details of flights & dates that he'll be staying in sgpore already.
Show luo, Hebe and other Taiwanese singers will be coming too but different dates.
So excited seriously bcse this time he'll be here for about 1 week ?! :)
Can't wait to watch his movie also, " already famous ". Michelle chia is the director of the movie.
This time he'll be coming to sgpore and there will be many events. omfg too excited....

This picture is taken during his FIRST visit in sgpore! look at the crown @ bugis.
Queued for about 12 hours that day, and skipped schl just to be the first few. hahahaha...

At indoor stadium when he received prize, we were all there to support him ...

CHASINGGGGGGG IN THE PRIVATE VAN!!!

@ IMM, rushed down to see him from schl and queue up again...

We chased him all the way to greatworldcity there to eat at his fav crab place.

Mini concert at st james powerstation. It was the best... queued for about 7 hours only & I squeezed myself all the way to the front of the stage and I managed to take a lot of clear photos. HAHAHAHA.

ohmygod fucking cuteeee.........................

All of us camping outside, waiting for him to come out.

I forgot when's this... but this is how we chased. we'll book a private van and all of us will chase him from morning to night, look at the mv we played in the van. it's his songs!!!

At the airport when he's leaving...

Fanboardsssss.

Can't wait already... gonna save money now. bcse chasing one day cost about $50 already...
I can't believe I'm smiling like hell while blogging this ^-^

Anw, sist fetched me from schl today & she said she'll give me a surprise.
YESSS it's a surprised indeed. She drove me to somewhere, and she wanted to blindfold me at first.
HEHEHEHE... Thankyou for today, love youuuuuu!

Im excited for tomorrow as well... wheee.

A day that was once significant.

2011-11-07T06:53:00.000-08:00

Today...It's the 7th again. It marks something that was once significant. It's been 8months. When I think about what happened to us, I start to realise that it's stupid. Stupid in the sense that we choose to believe others instead. And when I think about this whole situation, there's this awkward feeling. So undescribable. I feel that it's so fuckin' awkward. And weird? But no one felt it was. Maybe you don't find it so too. Maybe it's just me. I'm the weird one. I should stop overthinking. Everytime when we meet, you're always trying to avoid. Admit it, you tried to. Just because you hurt me or you just don't wish to even bump into me at all? I'm seeing a different person. I was called nonchalent, so who changed? You or me? Or both of us changed because you decided to prioritise me differently and I decided not to confide in you anymore? Maybe you never cared like how I did in the first place. Remember what you told me? Just because you're busy doesn't mean you stop caring about me. I was a fool to believe. All i know that the first person I loved so much is no longer there. Nothing is left of you. Yes, I admit I miss the person you used to be. Everything about you. Everything about us. All our memories. Even all your promises even though you don't mean it at all. They asked me why I let go. I asked myself too. What for clinging on, fighting for something and get hurt even more? Yes, letting go was hard. Painful indeed. But hoping is worst, hoping and expecting. You hate that I always expect. You think you shouldn't live up to my expectations. Okay, I stopped. I can't believe I just gave up. They say I was strong to do so. Well, I tried my best but it wouldn't work. Then one day it got too hard and I saw what you really wanted. You didn't really want me. You didn't know what you wanted. One thing I know for sure, you need a life without me. So I let you drop out of my life and gave up. now you're really gone. I think the problem lies with me hoping. Hoping for the better & trusting that everything would be the same. I guess I was wrong. So much problems, so much misunderstanding. I shouldn't be the girl that cries every night, sits down in one corner and wait for you. I should be strong, I should be independent like how I used to be. Like how I am now again. I should stop hoping that everything will fall back into pieces cause it'll never happen again. I should clear my mind without it jumping straight back to you. Falling for someone like that is the hardest / stupidest / dumbiest / retarded thing to do. I know it all along. There was fear. Fear of losing someone so dear to me, losing someone that means everything to me. I re-read our chats. I deleted it, but it fuckin' reappeared again. I don't know how it happened. But i deleted it once again and made sure it isn't there anymore. Words are just words without any substance inside it. Swallow them all back and don't spit it out again. I believed everything, I believed that feelings wouldn't change. You gave me every reason for the lies you fed me then. & one day I couldn't take it. I couldn't take how I'm placed right after her. I told you before, I was stuck in this hole. If you/I leave, it'll be hard for me to get back up. I was so afraid. It seemed like the whole world was gonna crash on my feet. But, it was never gonna be the same. Nothing would change. So I faced the mirror and tell myself " Lyn,it's time for you to dig yourself from this hole and start all over again with someone who just might be willing to give you the chance he never did " It's not like you didn't know how I felt. After reading my diary, every single fuckin' details about how I felt. All I wanted to know is, who was I to you? I know this is a constant cycle. It's something that is bound to happen again. Falling for someone I believed was perfect. Then, I learnt that no one is ever perfect. Ironically, the perfection itself is an imperfection. After this heartbreak, I found that it was a good experience for me. A valuable lesson that can only be felt when you experience it. It shaped me in a way that I could never go back to the innocence that I had before, the naive one. This adds on to my trust issues I have. Admittedly, there were fuckin' awesome moments we had together that made me felt like the happiest girl in the world. You know that, I wrote that in my diary. You made me really really really happy and I thought I was the luckiest girl in the universe. But, the majority of the time you shut me out. So should I be happy about it? I can't help but clinging to the threads you trail behind. Everything reminds me of you. You said you don't know what you've become, you don't know what made you feel that way. & you said you hated yourself for inflicting pain in me. If you don't know, how do you expect me to know? I'm even more clueless than you. You left me speechless when my parents asked what happen to us. You left me speechless when my brother want to meet you for a game again. I told them it's different now. You know what? I hate to feel replaced. Hate to fuckin' admit the fact that she's better in all ways. The lifetime promise you made will haunt me. I remember everything. It's not easy to forget. Yeah, I wished I had selective memory too. You once said that you'll not end up like those guys, pooffff... look what happened. I thought I could do this without you. Guess what, it don't hurt because you're not here anymore. I accepted it and moved on. I fuckin' did. I'm able to look you in the eye without having the knife-sharp pain in my heart anymore. Thanks for shaping me this way. This time I'll know what to do, I'll get what I deserve to. And what I deserve to get is not gonna be you anymore. I'm not sure if you'll see this or not, I don't know who'll read this. Don't leave any comments in formspring regarding this post, don't judge, don't assume, don't make guesses to who this person is or I'll private my blog. Thanks :)

“ It’s just that I don’t want to be somebody’s crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don’t want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it, too. I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me. And if they do something I don’t like, I’ll tell them. ”

It'll still be without you although I promised to spent with you. But not anymore when you can enjoy it with her/them.

FYI, IM NOT EMO. THIS IS JUST A REFLECTIVE POST. I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. I'M PERFECTLY FINE. hawhawhaw <:

Did PW today. Norms, Nick and Aishah came over to my house. Then Aishah left to meet her friends while the boys and I went for lunch tgt. Headed to W's house. was a last-minute one. Watched Insedious with great sound system, pretty scary :o! Dinnered with his family & his mom said ' make yourself feel at home '. Then he smiled. I was like " HUH.......... I BET YOU TOLD YOUR MOM CRAPS ABOUT ME. " hahahahahaha. Went home early today, about 9? Johannes drove over to my place with Maejeen and Feng. It was a sudden one & i gotta shock. Pass Mj her stuffs & yup. hehehehe. Today's a great day ^-^

Alright! time to turn in now, baiiiiixxxxxxxxxxcccc.

What's life?

2011-11-06T08:25:00.000-08:00

3rd november.
Skipped school bcse I couldn't wake up. Met Davin first & we bluffed Bam together. Hehehe.. We went to buy cake for her at Takashimaya. It's the best strawberry moose cake in singapore! :D Walked around town and headed to Kbox. Bam and Nick arrived... We sang for about 4 hours? Super high! Screamed , danced , and surprised her with the cake. ( I still can laugh at the video of them rap-ing after watching it for 5 times , HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ). After kboxing, we went to find the Muttons & dedicated song for Bam. And we wrote notes so the Muttons could see... I felt like a total retard hahahahaha. But it was fun! The Muttons said ' Happy birthday Mabel, from the MTC ' LIVEEEEEEEE ON RADIO STATION OK^-^!

After that we headed to newton for dinner & supper because it was late already. Mom fetched us from newton & they came over to my house & we started stalking people & they went back close to 12am. Mwhahaha. It was really an frigging awesome day with MTC :)

Saturday
Went out with godsist & bro. Went to flea and find Xinyi and her Bf. Dressed like shit and wore slippers to town. Too embarrassed that I ran away from one of my friend when I saw him. Haahahahaha! Met Leon there at the flea too, he is too tall. Easy to spot....

Today
Persuaded Daddy to shop with me today, met quite a few people at town as well. I think I have the most awesome Dad in the world. He's so tolerable... no one else can tolerate my nonsense and my retarded behavior. Thank you Dad for spending 3hrs with me shopping and being my portable ATM ^^v.

Picnic with the family after that at Botanical Garden. Played frisbee & had fun. I love y'all :)

Look like fucken shit with plain face, nothing at all........................................................ not gonna post much pics. hahahahahahaha. okay byeee.

Goodnight xx.

My 17th Birthday

2011-11-04T08:21:00.000-07:00

I had a great 17th birthday, thanks to you guys.
I appreciate everything you guys did, I love y'all so so much :)

Thanks to my CCA-mates for surprising me with the Hello Kitty cake during training.

Spent my birthday eve with Maejeen, Yifeng, Yonghong, Daryl, Suman, Weiting, Jianwu, Roysius.
Went to Halloween museum at scape with them till late, got in for free bcse my uncle is the owns the place.
There was once, a 'ghost' tapped me and hugged me & it was one of my uncle, mwahahahahaahaha.
Had fun especially for the 3D walk :)

Thank you Uncle Reno :)

Treated them at a Japanese restaurant at Cenileisure. Some left after that because it was late already.
Went drinking at some bar nearby... then Maejeen surprised me with a birthday cake exactly at 12am sharp!

Blur face forever.

I LOVE YOU MAEJEEEEN, HEHEHEHE THANKS FOR THE KISS ALSO ^^.

Went back past midnight again... slept for only 3 hrs!

Cabbed to school bcse Mommy and Daddy couldn't wake up as well.

Told the taxi uncle Pioneer Jc, & he brought me to Pioneer Sec which is near Jurong?!

Gotta shock & i was nearly late for school already. & he didn't know where PJC is...

Luckily I reached school on time.

Thanks Brenda & Minni for the 17 chocolate cornflakes you made & the big card!

Thanks Ser Lee for the chocolate & the card!

Thanks Nick Tey for the card!

Thanks Davin for the cake & the card!

Thanks Mabel for the cake & 4hrs of your time for that drawing of us!

Thanks Yonghong for the gift & the the super big cake!

& definitely all of y'all who wished me in real life. :)

Mommy picked me up immediately after school, had lunch with grandparents and aunt.

Went home to bathe and rushed down to meet Tim for only 30mins bcse I had to rush else where.

Cut another birthday cake. Thanks for the card & gift ! :)

Off to town to meet Jianwu & Warren, thanks for the gifttttt omggg juicy couture!

And he said ' Don't worry it's not a ring ' mwahahahahahahahahaha. Thank you so so much! :)

Met Darius awhile after that for awhile to catch up at starbucks.

Thanks for sharing with me your daily life story, the card & the presents you bought. :)

Supposed to meet Matilda and Rach but I couldn't bcse I have to be home by 7pm.

Got home ON TIME ^^

Thanks korkor for the present!

Super touched bcse my brother stays in his school hostel at Jurong but he came back home yesterday bcse of me!

His Alvls is in 4days time but he chose to spend a few hours with the family and I before returning to hostel again.

Eldest brother's girlfriend & grandpa came also.

She wanted me to open the present in front of her bcse she said ' Im sure you'd love it. Double confirm '

I gotta shock! It was really what I wanted. I bet my brother told her. It's a DKNY perfume ^^.

Best brother in the world!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE =))))))))))

Thanks who those who wish me via whatsapp : Maejeen, Nigel, Yanching, Sueanne, Yi Ling, Leyuan, Miho, Daniel, Jessica, Jianwu, Davin, Vincent.

Thanks who those who wished me via sms : Aishah, Brenda, Matilda, Yanxuan, Tim, Changlong, Rebecca, Fadil, Liqi, Suman, Darryl Thiam, Benedict, Yaozu, Yifeng, Jeremy, Leon, Sally, Jeremy Tan, Jamie, Chonghuang, Jocelyn Goh, Joanna , Rachel, Xinyi, Marites, Daryl ong, Ben Ng, Aishyn Lam, Xingyee, Michelle, Yonghong, Shelly Khoo, Jingvin, Huimin, Deborah Looi, Avril chua, Joey Tan, Fiona Ho, Darius Ong, Zoea, Daryl Neo, Madeline, Eugene & Ryan Foo.

Thanks who those who wished me via twitter : Brenda, Weihao, Weiting, Darryl Lim, Jiawen, Yonghong, Nick Tey, Joanna Tay, Amanda Tan, Karen Lim, Nicholas De Silva, Yanching, Yixiang, Jamie, Sara, Sindy, Michelle Chia, Ivy Tan, Tessa , Grace, Christopher, Xinyu,Aishyn, Xingyee, Sarah Tay, Kelvin Soon, Siva, Jansen, Han yong, Audrey Goh,Avril Chua, Eunice Loh, Cherie Cheong, Hazel Chua, Mabel Sim, Nicole, Huimei, Pascal, Xiumin, Scarlet & Rush.

& of course, those who wished me on facebook. :)

I had a great one!

xoxo, lyn.

2011-10-28T10:32:00.000-07:00

School > Watched ' How I Met Your Mother ' in class > Lunch with Brenda > Meet Davin & his friends.

Digged out some picture, & I found this.
MTC :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Unsent letter.

2011-10-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

Spent 3 hours plus writing a letter - 6892 words.
There's just too much things to say and too much emotions.
I finally spent time to let it out.
Yes, it's an unsent letter.

Fine.

2011-10-26T09:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY DEEPAVALI :D

Overnight at jo's place last night bcse i was too tired to go home. Since daddy is not in sgpore, mommy allowed. Mwahahahaha. I love you mommy :-* Alvin booked out yesterday. & so he brought momo out to his friend's place... Jo and I waited for him to come back so we had h2h talk till midnight. It was perf timing to overnight at their place bcse Vin is not home so i can sleep on his bed. Mwahahahaha. Woke up ard noon time and saw Winnie beside Alvin's bed. I GOT A SHOCK. lollll i didnt know she came as well...

Alvin drove us for lunch at Bktpanjang and we ate at The Cafe Cartel. & today, it was sponsored bcse someboddeee was in the good mood. hahahahahhahaa.Then, A drove me to J's house.... played awhile and had dinner with his family. So awkward... his granny is super cute and friendly bcse she kept talking to me. heheee. Bused home but i took the wrong bus home... I took 960 and ended up at woodlands checkpoint. I gotta shock outta my lifeeeee. I panicked bcse my phone was dying and I felt totally stranded. Like... WHUTTTT WHERE THE HELL AM I...Then, N called me and i cabbed back home. hhahahaha. the moral of the story is not to take bus if i'm not sure how to. gosh.. wasted like 1hr plus travelling back. Feel so dumb laaaa.*Face palm*

I've 10 chinese compo mm to do by tomorrow and I havent started. Holymamaa... & i just found out from nick like a few hours ago bcse i skipped tuesday's chi lesson.. whutt on earth... 10?!?!?!?! crazy... that's like killing and torturing me mentally... Presentation tomorrow, im not prepared at all. Yknow why I hate presentations the most? It's bcse i hv no confidence at all.. I'm not the type that can speak infront of a grp of people... I'll get hell nervous and I'll start to stutter. & while you're presenting, people are judging. REALITY... that sucks.

Goodnighttttt xx<3

One day

2011-10-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

Caught ' one day ' with mj, mat, jeremy,yf and nig...
Who said it was nice huhh?! It was so dragggyyyy and boringggg. Only towards the end it's kinda touching.
No, not recommended by me... ' real steel ' is x582395798352 better :)

The next movie I wanna watch is Paranormal Activity 3, 那些年 & obviously 一泡而红
You guys better support it because xiaogui specially flew to singapore and malaysia just to film it.

Saw a few people at town today, tataa, offff toooo sleeep sooooooooonnnnnnn.

Ohyeah training tomorrow then off to meet xingyee and jaslyn :)

Last minute bbq.

2011-10-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was an unforgettable night with the hwachong buds :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
( Maejeen, Shelly, Matilda, Jeremy, Nigel, Yifeng, Boss, Jingvin )

Cabbed to Shelly's house and the guys helped to bbq.
Sat down, eat, chitchatted nonstop..... reminisced the past.
Up to her house blasted music.
Played cards for hours and drank.

I swear that the game we played was so funny, everybody did so many crazy and unexpected stuffs. Wild. Omg i really love you guys so much! After one bottle of Martell down, everybody's face were red and then they challeged to drink beer, with the record of like 5seconds. ok pro... Sent Mj and Jeremy off to their house & reached home about 1am, because my mom was apparently PMSing when she texted me to go home immediately or else she'll not let me out anymore. So cute la my mom, but no... she was just scaring me so i would go home.. I love you mommyyy ^^.

I'll not be uploading pics on fb this time. hehhhhhhhheeeeeee. These are a few so when I look back at my post, I can remember this awesome day. mwahahahahaha :)

Back to school tomorrow, but it ends at 11.30am! woooohooo! Gonna lunch with smurfy after that. :) Gdnight hv a great day people~

The lovelies.

2011-10-21T10:17:00.000-07:00

It's really a waste of time going to school for now.
The main reason why i still go to school is because my attendance is poor enough & i have to be present alr.
School ended early today :)

Went home to rest awhile & then nigel cabbed to my hse to pick me up to head to town!

Caught the movie ' Real Steel ' . AWESOMEEEEEE!!!!!

Initially I was quite hesitant to watch bcse I thought it was purely robots and boring show.

He watched it for the second time, so yeah shld be niceeee la !! heh.

You people shld watch if you havent done so :)

Met Maejeen and Feng for dinner & they made me laugh like mad.

Nigel and I paid for the dinner bcse of some bet thing we had...

After dinner, went to Shelly's house to meet Boss and her...

So 6 of us just chilled and blast music and her house, and drink just a little...

Back by 1am. ^^.

Thankyou Matilda for uploading the photos, i love your canon g12 !!!!!

I know tomorrow will be an awesome night. Goodnight everybody ! ^^

Happy Birthday Michele!

2011-10-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

It's my table-tennis captain's actual birthday today :)

Yesterday
Was deciding if I shld go training or not bcse i didnt bring any P.E shirt. ( i forgot ).
& then Nick was persuading me to go bcse they're gonna celebrate Michele's birthday.
So I said " Ok fine I'll buy a pe shirt later on... " HAHA.
Luckily he brought extra keller shirt to return Jamie, so i used it instead. weeee~~~
Training was awesome but tiring. Luckily we didnt have any foot works...
Surprised captain with a cake. It was so sudden. hehehee.

School ended at 8pm bcse I had PW group consultation.
So i headed down to Jurong point to meet my brother for dinner, misss him so much!

Today
Had Oral presentation & I was so nervous. OMAIIIII... I rlly hate presenting in front of people. SO AWKWARD.
Rushed home to bathe, change and meet mat at orchard :)
Bumped into nickyyy! omg, so happy ncse he'll be leaving to UK on weds again. Took a picture with him.
Saw Josh & his gf and Yuhan as well. Hvnt seen them for agessss...

Smthg funny happened today...
While I was accompanying mat to buy her macbook pro, this dude served us... & he was goodlooking.
Blahblahblah.. yeah dramas happened. hahahahaha...

Oyeahhh i had fun today.

Chilled around town till late and now I'm back skyping.
It feels like i rewinded back to the past, TOTALLY... it feels exactly the same :)

2011-10-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

Got back results today. mehhhhhhhhhhh no comments.
Now we just have to go school for PW and CHINESE intensive.
& fyi, chinese intensive is really hardcoreee intensive !!!!
It's like impossible to complete all the worksheet :o

Headed down to the daily scoop with Dav and Bam. Love being around em' cos we'll all go crazy together.

I can remember some of our funny conversations today. I was slow, I didnt get their cold jokes.
#1.
Me : " no lah, we ai mei only... "
Bam : " Ai what mei sia, you think love sister ah "

#2.
Bam : " she always hardcore exercise but can't lose weight. "
Dav : " bad genes... ask her go levis shop laaa. "
Me : " huh go there for what? no link sia. "
Dav : " bad JEANS mah... "

hahahaha ok lame, can't rmb other lame stuffs we said. met 3 china men in the daily scoop & they were SO NOISY laaa, talk so loud like they own the whole place... took the circle line back & passed by sushi shop so i convinced dav and bam to buy with me. hehehehe & i myself bought 8 california sushi rolll... WOOHOO im gonna put on some weight, yay!!! means time to excercise and keep fit baybear :p

Happygirl1994.

2011-10-16T08:13:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to love purple even more, haaaaaa. stfu if you think it's an international gay colour. HEEEE.

Woke up super late today, missed church ( i've missed it for weeks,ohno -_-" ).

Headed down to Novena for lunch & had yami yogurt. I really eat A LOT these few days & i'm enjoying it.

Went to Alvin's house to bring him some pizza and to catch up with him.

Very happy bcse i havent seen him for weeks & he booked in already. gahhhh....

Getting back promo results tomorrow, I've seriously no feelings. hahahaa...

I've tried my best even though I know i'm not better than the rest. So even if I can't make it... it's alright.
Crap. having sorethroat nowwwww.

& ohyeah we're on good terms now, this is so unexpected................................................................

The best part is........... mwahahahaha :)

Love y'all. goodnight <3

great day :)

2011-10-15T11:25:00.000-07:00

It's a saturday with hell lotsa fun :)
Met my bbgirls @ bugis... frigging terrible jam along kk hospital. Got stuck in the jam for 1hr10mins & my cab fare was $25.40, wtfffffff... felt so bad bcse maejeen waited for me quite long. Rebecca also got caught in the jam and her fare was $30+++ far must worse than me, heh. Shelly cabbed over the last and we went to arab street & haji lane :)

Had weird encounters today, pretty entertaining though. hahahahahah!!
First, a guy stranger just randomly gave me something & i didnt wanna take it. Then, he insisted on me taking it, and i ran away. Mj kept laughing nonstop but i swear i was totally freaked out.. Secondly, while we were chilling, a girl asked me for my number. & she said she wanna be friends with me blahblah. Then, i realised she's a lesbian -_-" ok laa quite cute but still.... omg no way. & so all along she was eavesdropping on our conversation and we didn't even realise it at all .

Headed down to Holland V to meet another friends. It was so funny. I told S that i wanna go guardian to buy biore marshmellow facial cleanser bcse i saw xiaxue and other bloggers advertising it. I told him " they say damn effective, like real marshmellow, can play leh " then he said " siao ah you, so small bottle you wanna use to play not clean face meh? " HAHAHAHHAAAAAAA. Had coldrock & took the circle line to botanical gardens and walked back home :)

Bye j2

2011-10-14T05:34:00.001-07:00

Today's last day of j2, had farewell assembly and the shooting of the rocket part was damn cooolllll. HAHAHAHAHA :) so happy for both Mabel and serlee. I Kinda miss those feeling a hell lot where you can go crazy bcse of infatuation. I remember that clearly & I started having flashback of what made me happy, how I teared & jumped for joy. I want that feeling back again, it's priceless. Yknow memories don't change but people do, & that's part and parcel of life. I gotta accept it cos it's reality. Lessons resumed after farewell assembly. Headed to sissy's house to accompany her & talked to her. What she said makes sense, hope it gets into me. I knew from the day we met, you'd be kind of hard to forget. But what to do? If time can make you feel that way, time will make me forget you.

:)

2011-10-13T07:12:00.000-07:00

There are uncountable songs that can relate to how I feel & this is one of em.

Lyrics.

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And I dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You are always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You are always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe I can never find
Somebody like you
My first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the warmth of your embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
Yeah, yeah, yeah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
Oh... Oh...

You are always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Struck

2011-10-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

Something struck me again today. Again again and again. It has been exactly one week but it seems like just yesterday... It'll be haunting me for another night but every night, it gets less painful.

Busy life once again. PEE DOUBLE YOU all the way and chinese intensive... I think im so gonna get heart attack on Monday bcse we'll be getting back all our papers all at one go.
IMAGINE GETTING SHOT 5 TIMES CONSECUTIVELY. DAMNNNNNN!

Went out awhile at night & met Joanne. Long time since i met her, hee. Just finished doing PW OP, ok no complains. Year 1 is gonna end soon :)

I found myself back.

2011-10-11T07:39:00.000-07:00

Wheee im back!

School wasn't as bad as I thought, it was pretty fun though bcse I didnt think much. Passed Serlee her super belated present bcse I didnt even get to see her on friday and monday.Went thru exam papers... Terrible & i know where's my mistakes. We won't even get back our papers till monday. The schl is torturing us by keeping us in suspense. Don't think I'll get promote this time round. But nayy it's okay. As what mommy daddy say, happiness is most important. It's not like education determines every single shit, it's just a piece of paper. So whuttttt if you have the brains but you have shittty character. They're happy to see me happy & so, vice versa. hehehehee :)

After schl, went with yh for dinner and caught up with bam in the bus. Went to foot reflexology after that. $50 leh, goood money but tiring job. Anw I checked my email and there's the confirmation on the clothes i want! It was the last piece & so i tried my luck. So yh is going down to his hse nearest POSB to help me transfer the money. HEEEE so thankful. I owe him smthg.

Movie marathon anyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee????????????????????????????????? :)))))))

Seeing this pic, and I misss carolinaaaa. gahhhhh...

BE CONVICTED. BELIEVE IN MYSELF. xx.